Lost Thing

Hello, everyone. Happy New Year!

Have just got back from visiting grandma and suddenly feel guilty for not staying with her on the New Year's Eve, just like other past few years. So guilty that I think I'm going crazy, thinking how lonely she must be while we were enjoying one of the new released movies at the cinema instead of accompanying her that night. 

I admit it, I've just caused a lost of a precious thing. These last few years, we passed it together, enjoying little parties with dearest cousins. Mostly, Grandma would just stay inside her bedroom, but I know she felt relieved hearing the laughter came out from her noisy grandchildren. Even if she got to stuff her ears with fingers and sometimes got shocked hearing the sound of fireworks we lit, she told me she would feel much, much better having us staying with her. On my visit today, grandma asked me whether I'd stay, but even for a night I couldn't grant her wish since I got something to do at school tomorrow morning. I should've not come, huh? She looked pretty fine but I guess I made her sad. Gosh, I'm feeling bad. 

Just want to let her know how badly I miss our bygone years, but seriously, I'm currently getting crazy dealing with the time. Four days for Bandung trip, few days for cousins' sleep over program at home, almost a week for 70's Bali tour, the whole holiday for school's upcoming social event I handle, few days for intern and extern meetings plus surveys, the whole holiday for dad who spares his time to come home, the whole holiday for mom since I've stolen most of our quality times during the theatre club's daily rehearsals of its latest performance, etc.

Still I thank God for the 24 hours He gave us each day. Just have to manage it better this time. May everything run well and of course, get to meet grandma soon. Really wish to have another little party on 2014's New Year's Eve. Get to spare a few days for her. I'll make sure for it to happen.

Hope you enjoy your holiday and, have a great upcoming year!

This is what I've been hearing lately. I'm not a k-poper or a big fan of JIN (fyi, this is her debut song too), but when it comes to good songs or its unique back stories (especially if it is told implicitly in its music videos), the original language won't matter. I just have to browse for the translation though.